Day 10 Just Hanging On…

Today was day #10 of my warring for breakthrough.  Nothing strange or unusual occurred today.  My prayer partner is still sick, but I hope she can show up tomorrow.  She was better today.  I got up and did my Lord’s Supper, Prayer, and Praise by myself, but I know God was very present.  I am finding it easier by the day to enter into the aspect of praise.  It makes it a lot easier when you remember to give thanks for all your blessings first.  Sometimes I get so caught up in the drama of all the things in my life that are a mess that I sometimes forget to give thanks for the blessings I do have! 

• I got to spend 9 years with a wonderful husband who loved me very much.
• My 3 children are still alive and well, in spite of spending quite a few years living a dangerous lifestyle.
• Most of my family is alive and healthy.
• I was brought up in America by CHRISTIAN parents who taught me about God. 
• I have the best parents ever.
• I can go to church wherever I like, and in most places, I can still talk about God and Jesus.
• I was born in 1961, in a time when the entire world was not riddled with death and disease.
• I am healthy enough to see, hear, think, and walk around freely to engage in most activities that please me.
• I am still able to live in my home.
• I have a car and modern appliances.
• I have nice clothes to wear and abundant food to eat.
• I have a couple of good friends who love me.
• I have the sweetest pets ever.

 In general, I feel stronger in my spirit than I did a few weeks ago.  I feel calmer and more at peace as well. My circumstances have not outwardly changed, but I feel confident that they will.  Surely within the next 20 days, something will manifest.  I am seeing prayers answered in the lives of others.  

Today, I went and helped out a friend with getting some of his business affairs straightened out.  I just got back a little while ago.  My friend was just having TROUBLE dealing with the monster paperwork issues.  I know the feeling.  Paperwork is my worst nightmare.  I have STACKS of it around my place.  I have no problem helping someone else do theirs, but doing my own seems to take a Herculean effort that I cannot dredge up.  A while  back, I heard a sermon preached about the way to achieve  your dream being to first help someone else achieve theirs, then God will send the circumstances to birth your dream.  Since my business and home affairs are in a fat mess, I thought maybe if I helped out a friend in getting theirs straight, God would provide the needed help for me get mine straight.  It could be that all the help I need is just being able to better FOCUS. 

I still need friends to keep praying for me, that breakthrough comes.  I tried fasting today, and did fairly well.  I had juice and some fruit.  I prayed about it beforehand, which helped.  I was never one who was very good at fasting….. go figure.  I get hungry!

So…… to bed, to pray, to snuggle with my dogs…. and we’ll see what tomorrow brings.  I am asking God to hold me close to His heart, for Him to give me a special awareness of His closeness and presence in order to stay strong and to keep from feeling lonely and afraid, to keep my eyes off circumstance and stay grounded in faith.  I am asking for Him to show me how He wants to be praised by ME….. what will make HIM feel more loved by me?  I have asked the Holy Spirit to show me what needs to change in me so that I can step forward to fulfill the destiny God has planned for me.  I am confident He will show me! 

Day 9 – Attacks and Aggravations!

Today is proving to be challenging.  The devil always gets real mad when we go into warfare.  He tries to throw problems and obstacles into our paths to stop us.  He has certainly done that today, so today I am asking you to pray for me.

The insomnia continues to be a problem, as are the chronic headaches, but I can live with that, for now.  I’m having a lot of trouble with the headache, mental confusion and procrastination today.  That battle ebbs and flows, according to how strong my Princess Warrior is feeling.  She feels a little weak today. 

However – I am a nervous wreck because of my deadline on my IRS issue. It is a very huge, very complicated mess that I have let grow into a monster because I just did not know what to DO with it!!!  PLEASE pray with me this will all get sorted out without causing a huge financial crisis for me.  I had rather get a root canal with no anesthesia than deal with an issue like this.  Resolving this will be a huge monkey off my back! 

On top of that, my prayer partner got very  SICK.  She couldn’t make it this morning, and I suspect she won’t be able to make it tomorrow either.  The devil is attacking her, too.  That is the crazy thing ….. when things start happening in the spirit world, you get attacked…. and attacked….  Every morning before we start our warfare, we pray protection over ourselves and our families, our pets, and our property!!!  No telling WHAT would happen if we didn’t pray that.  One of my prayer partner moms started some strong intercession for one of her kids yesterday……….and last night, their CAR got burglarized. However, she did pray protection before she prayed for her child.  The burgling perpetrators were actually caught! I thought that was just great.

The devil hates it when we go to war.  We have demonic tormenters assigned to each of us, just like we have guardian angels assigned by God.  Our dark angels have been watching man ever since man was created.  They are very ancient, and fearsomely intelligent.  They have seen every sin, and they have sent temptation for every sin.  Each one of them has personally wrecked multiple thousands of lives.  They cannot read our minds, but they sure can read our actions, body language/facial expressions, hear every word we say, watch us even while we sleep, and they can certainly speak to us.  They affect the behaviors of others toward us by working through others, using their voices, their hands, and their feet.  (Anyone with young adult children knows this very well --- when those offspring hit the supernaturally inspired rebellion stage, which can last for years, dealing with them can be like dealing with the most contrary, perverse demon this side of hell……which is EXACTLY what you ARE dealing with!) Demons are EXPERTS on the behaviors of man.  They have established strongholds for individual weaknesses within each family.  Therefore, they know where to strike the children, because the stronghold was already built up with the father, or even beyond.  The Word says that the sins of the fathers can be passed down for 10 generations.  This is why you often find that grandpa is alcoholic, then son, then grandson. 

When dark angels see their established kingdoms begin to fall because a Christian who has discovered their authority in Jesus Christ goes into battle against them, they are infuriated.  They will do everything possible to maintain the evil structure they have built.  Their sole purpose for even being is to STEAL, KILL, and DESTROY.  Compassion or mercy is not part of their make-up.  They possess only hate.   In retaliation against Christians who fight against them and try to prevent them stealing, killing and destroying, they attack the family, the finances/resources, and the health.  If you think you can prevail against a dark angel without the help of Jesus Christ, you are sadly mistaken.  Such a powerful being will ANNIHILATE you!!   

HOWEVER…. when you, as a Christian, learn how to use the authority Jesus Christ bequeathed you when He died on the cross, you can utilize that authority through your actions and prayers, and make those dark kingdoms fall like a house of cards!!   THAT is why they will do everything in their power to prevent your learning about how to successfully wage war.  Their favorite ploy to prevent Christians learning how to war is to tell people that SPIRIT WARRIORS ARE CRAZY!!! Don't deny it... if you come from any background other than Pentecostal, that is probably what you currently believe, or what you DID believe!  However, the truths of spiritual warfare are now slowly creeping into nearly EVERY denomination.  You may be unknowingly sitting in the pew next to a Spirit Warrior this Sunday morning.  One of the most powerful Princess Spirit Warriors I know is a Lutheran over at Lamb of God.  A few years ago, such a thing would have been unheard of within a Lutheran denomination.  I know another warrior who is Anglican, and he's a Spirit Warrior beyond comparison!  The very first Spirit Warrior I ever met, about 25 years ago, was a conservative Baptist minister who was about 80 years old!!

There is a Christian based recovery group out there meeting in churches all over town, called Celebrate Recovery, which many of people of faith prefer over AA because you are allowed to say "Jesus" there without being thrown out.  During the time I regularly attended for a year to over come my grief issues, I made an interesting discovery. Many CR (Celebrate Recovery) groups have a high number of Spirit Warriors in attendance.  You might prefer to call them freedom fighters. Many of them have grown to realize that they cannot kick their addiction or overcome their issue without actively warring in the supernatural realms. You generally find them by asking around, because they don't wear gold name tags labeled "Spirit Warrior".

The WORD says “Resist the devil and he will FLEE from you!”  However, he usually creates a big stink in your personal dimension before he flees.  One must persevere, and not give up, in order to receive the breakthrough.  One very effective strategy when dealing with dark angels messing with your mind and trifling with your thought life and feelings by lying to you is to pick up your Bible and read OUT LOUD Ezekiel 28 and Isaiah 14.  These chapters address Satan’s downfall.  You may need to read for several minutes.  You may need to read the chapter twice.  It is far more effective when you read the words aloud.  They cannot read your mind, but they can certainly HEAR you.  Their ears are very sharp!!!  They hear every word you say, especially the words you say which give them legal rights to establish access to your life.  They certainly hear the Biblical words that talk about their downfall and ultimate fate.  Hearing those words is like torture to them.  It’s like pouring salt on a slug…..  This may sound twisted..... but I LOVE TO SENSE OR WATCH THEM WRITHE.  They have caused me so much pain and destruction, their writhing gives me immense satisfaction!!!!  I glory in their writhing!!

Almost 100% of the time, when you read these chapters out loud, you will experience almost immediate relief from the oppression they are bringing against your mind.  Try it. Remember, when we were kids, and we watched the old black and white Dracula movies? When someone pulled out a cross, he recoiled in horror and backed off his victim.  That's how demons behave when you read these Biblical passages aloud to them.  Email me.  Let me know how it works for you.  It is one of my favorite strategies.

I must share a little bit of humor with you.  Some of you enjoy reading my casual Facebook posts about the silly anecdotes of my adult children.  If you do, you know I have a somewhat warped and weird sense of humor.  I have enough stories to write volumes, if I’d just harness my memories and document it all.  My 28 year old daughter and 9 year old grand daughter live with me.  My daughter is not where she ought to be with the Lord right now, so I am doing a lot of intercession for her.  She seldom attends church with me.  She gets a little freaked out when I start talking about demonic, supernatural activity, but she totally BELIEVES because she’s SEEN!!   However, she prefers not to discuss it or delve into it.  She gets a little scared, because she well knows she is not in the spiritually protected place under the Lord's wing, where she needs to be.  

She once had a horrifying encounter with the spirit world when she was about 16, playing with her friends experimenting with witchcraft rituals using rocks and candles.  Let us say, when a huge, ugly, gray, scaley,  demonic entity appeared, filling up the entire corner of the room, snarling "You called?"  she immediately realized it was NOT play!  I had to do a lot of praying with her over that one!  I also had to cast him out of my house.  He hung around for quite awhile before I knew about it, apparently terrorizing her the whole time. To this day, 10 years later, she still won't go into that particular bedroom, which used to be her old room. I asked her "Well, if you invited him into the house, ya really think he's gonna just hang out only in the bedroom, girlie, he probably had the run of the whole house when he was here!!!"

I often experience insomnia.  Some of this has been caused by spiritual phenomena, some not.  It was especially bad after the death of my husband.  Also, I’ve  been  battling with the ornery antics of my wayward children for years.  Let us be very diplomatic and say they are plagued with many of the same evil entities that caused their biological father so many issues.  Breakthrough for them is part of why I have been called to 30 days of warfare.  

 

Sometimes when I cannot sleep at night, if the issue is spiritual (You would not believe some of the horrible lies I hear – well you actually might, if you hear the same ones) I pull out the Bible and start striding back and forth through my house in the wee hours, reading Isaiah 14 and Ezekiel 28 out loud.  Sometimes, very loud.  Occasionally, this wakes my daughter up.  She used to come out of her room, hunt me down, stare at me in shock and awe as I emphatically strode back and forth over the carpet reading in a loud voice,"Thou wast PERFECT in thy ways from the day that thou wast created, till INIQUITY was found in thee. By the multitude of thy merchandise they have filled the midst of thee with violence, and thou hast sinned: therefore I WILL CAST THEE AS PROFANE out of the mountain of God: and I will DESTROY THEE, O covering cherub, from the midst of the stones of FIIIIIRRREE!!!!!!"  

I love this stuff, I really get into it, if you can't tell.  I guess it COULD be a disturbing sight, seeing your Mom in her leopard nightgown with hair all wild, carrying the big, coffee table version of the Bible through the house reading aloud with great vehemence about destruction of Satan with the interesting verses about pits and fires and maggots and worms and whatnot.  The coffee table Bible is the one I like to carry through the house reading aloud, because the passages sound so much more threatening when read aloud from the coffee table King James.  With eyes getting rounder by the second, she'd blurt out "Moootherrrrrr, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?? Have you lost your mind?  WHY??  WHY are you doing THAT??”

 It used to freak her out some. She’d stare at me with very round eyes for several minutes, then walk off to bed, shaking her head.  Then she got used to it.  Now, she’ll just stick her head out of her room and crisply shout “MOM!!  Can you read a little quieter to those demons, please??”

The other day, she was acting really ugly toward me.  This is the daughter who was molested by her biological father, so she is still struggling with emotional issues which often manifest inappropriately toward me. She has no contact with him, so with whom shall she be angry but me??   I was cooking at the stove, and she was just being flat out rude and hateful.  So instead of getting on her case, because I knew right where the garbage was coming from, I started binding the spirits using her voice to speak so hatefully to me.  I was doing it under my breath, so as to not make waves with her.  I suppose she heard me anyhow.  She spun around suspiciously and snapped “MOTHERRRRRR!!  What are you doing? You are over there talking to yourself like a crazy person, WHY?” Pause. “OH!!! WELL!!  Yeah, I GUESS I KNOW WHY!”  

She KNEW why, because it’s a thing I do fairly regularly!! So she angrily flounced off…. not saying another WORD.  She might have been in a MIFF, but it WORKED!!!!  The ugly talk was over, and she later apologized.  For some reason, I found a lot of humor in that particular situation.  It was like a zipper just passed right across her lips when I started binding that stuff.  She is a sweet girl at heart, and that stuff really isn’t her.  Every time she is dealing with an issue, she asks me to pray for her. The occasional progress I see in her life is the reason I tolerate her shenanigans in my home.  I have faith that ONE DAY she will completely surrender to the Lord.  She is far more open to His leading that any of my other children.

My son isn’t speaking to me right now.  He’s been angry since Christmas.  He is in the middle of a serious battle with alcohol and other things.  But, sometimes he calls his sisters, and tells them “Hey, tell MOM to pray some of her crazy prayers for me, OK, cuz I think when she prays them, they are working!”

Do you hear that?  They think my prayers are crazy, and they think I am a little nuts for all my dealings with the supernatural spirit world…. BUT THEY KNOW WHO TO CALL WHEN THEY NEED TO GET PRAYED FOR.  And they doggone well don’t hesitate!!  Anytime they are going on a job interview (which is pretty often) or going to COURT (which is even more often) they ask crazy MOM for prayer!!

Yeeeessssss.......  I well understand how weird and crazy this all sounds!  I was raised Baptist, remember??? Craziness like this wasn't DONE.  Period.  They would have hauled a person like me out the doors in a strait jacket from the church I grew up in. No matter how weird or crazy many people find this topic, I am in excellent company.  There are MORE of  US Spirit Warriors out here than you'd ever dream. And, when you read through your Bible, there is an incident in the New Testament where Jesus's own family wanted to lock him up because they thought HE was crazy!!  Crazy doesn't bother me at all. 

You are in a WAR.  It’s not a battle.  If you have to get crazy to win, GET CRAZY.  When it comes to your LIFE failing or succeeding, your kids living or dying, do you REALLY care what people who disagree with you think?  I have ceased to care altogether.  The freedom of myself and family is worth whatever it costs me in the way of outside relationships and worldly opinion!  You’ll win some battles, and you’ll lose some.  The closer to Jesus you get, the more battles you’ll win.  However, even though you sometimes lose, the ultimate goal is to WIN THE WAR.  Go to war to GET YOUR KIDS BACK.   Go to war to GET YOUR MARRIAGE BACK.  Go to war to GET MARRIAGE, PERIOD.   Go to war to GET YOUR FINANCES BACK.  Go to war to GET YOUR HEALTH BACK.  Go to war to GET WHATEVER WAS STOLEN BACK!  If you don't think you can, I assure you, YOU CAN.  If I can do it, anybody can.

Welcome to war, fellow pilgrims.  There is strength in numbers.  Get crazy, rouse your Warrior Spirit and fight alongside me.  Prepare yourself with knowledge of how to acquire freedom and the strategies of spiritual warfare.  God is getting ready to do great and marvelous things.   

The first thing I have to do is to successfully make it through the rest of this day…..  However, all is not lost.  As I sit up here in the computer room, dealing with all these boxes of files trying to sort out this tax mess.....with a sweet doggie snuggled up in the dog bed at my feet, KLOVE ONLINE is playing.  Before he passed away, my sweet hubby bought me a great set of speakers for my computer.  All corners of this room are permeated with praise music..... they are playing great stuff today. So sometimes, I just stop and get into my praise.  PRAISE BROUGHT DOWN THE WALLS OF JERICHO.  Twyla-Jericho-Wall, YOU ARE COMING DOWN!! In Jesus' name, you're DONE!!!!!

MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Day 8 GOD Holds Me To Keeping My PROMISE!

This has to be a shorter blog today, because I just have so much to do that has to be completed today!!!  (I have to take care of some IRS issues and my deadline is tomorrow.... please pray.  They gave me a REFUND, and now two years later they are SUING me for it plus huge penalties, because THEY issued it by mistake.... what a mess....) Please pray for me….. the insomnia is driving me nuts.  I CAN’T SLEEP.  This has been happening for about 4 months now, but the last few weeks, it’s been pretty severe.  My mind won’t shut down, and I can’t go to sleep until 4 or 5 am and then have to get up a couple hours later.  I often pray or journal when I can’t sleep, or work on projects, but a human must MUST have sleep to function!!!!  Please pray,  because my prayers seem stuck in the area of sleep.

Yesterday was incredible.  God showed up so unmistakably that I was greatly encouraged.  Our church sung the HOSANNA song yesterday morning, which totally unloosed my Princess Warrior. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQGJdTpMUcU  This song is so profound when you really listen to the words! It ushers you right in to the presence of God.

My prayer partner showed up very early at our appointed time, and again, my dogs warned me of her arrival.  I stumbled down the stairs in my usual wild haired, goo-eyed disarray, and immediately chugged  2 cups of black tea, 2 Excedrin, and liberally infused taurine vitamin drink to resurrect myself.  She was staring at me in horror as I sat there at the table struggling to wake up.  She was far to kind to say “Gee, Twyla,  you look like rancid death!”, but I knew she was thinkin’ it. 

This one wakes me up tho!! The Yahweh song.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsSyx63qiZE&feature=related

We took our Lord’s Supper. Although it is a symbolic thing, I believe this is a very important part of our warfare.  It commemorates the new covenant Jesus made with us.  Many Christian people don't realize it, but those 3 days Jesus was "missing" before His resurrection and after His death, He was busily defeating all the powers of HELL on our behalf.  He bought our freedom, and He died to bequeath us the authority to USE IT.  We had our prayer lists, and were scribbling all over them as God gave us new things to pray over.  Then my friend left, and I got into my praise time, just like I did on Saturday.  I put my list in the floor and marched around it with the praise.  YES….. AGAIN…. YESSSSSSSS I really DO know how wheels-off crazed that sounds.  I was brought up BAPTIST, and no, Baptists do NOT do weird stuff like that.  Yeeeeesssss, I know.  But, when I do that, I feel a cracking and crumbling in the spirit world. 

I saw an email from a friend, asking for prayer.  I felt really bad, because it came in yesterday, and I missed it.  So I called my friend.  She is walking through a very dark valley with her older children.  They aren’t nearly as old as mine, but I have been just where she is right now.  I have walked, and am walking through some of the same stuff with mine.  Addictions…. Runaway…. Suicide attempts….  Horrible personal choices..... Abusive relationships.....  Poverty, Chaos and Destruction running through their lives.  All those things that make a single mother’s life a living hell…..  It’s bad enough for married parents, but when you are single, and having to manage this stuff with your children on your own, the misery exponentially multiplies.

When she shared with me all the things that were happening, I immediately recognized that these issues were coming straight out of the spirit world, and require the application of FREEDOM MINISTRY.  Yeah, I know that might freak some of you out.  However, trust me, it is all for real.  I have personally battled hordes of these awful things, and they are just as real as you or me…..  They are your enemies, and their special assignment is to watch you, spot your weaknesses, and BRING YOU DOWN.  Steal. Kill. Destroy.  They crawl up straight out of the pits of hell and attach themselves to your life, or the lives of your family, and attack like an army of sharks.

So – I am excited to be able to help show my friend how to wage war here. I am getting ready to call her right now and share some more.   It is funny, because I have been praying specifically for her and her kids ALL WEEK.  I had no idea until this morning that she was actually embroiled in a huge struggle.  Today, I get to share with her what she can do to successfully help herself and  kids.

I also shared with you that when you are in the middle of a battle, with satan (with a little s, I refuse to honor him with a big one) you get out your Bible, and you open it up to Isaiah 14 and read that chapter out loud.  Then you turn to Ezekiel 28, and you read that chapter out loud.  Those chapters tell about satan's stupidity, and his ultimate end fate.  He HATES to hear it read aloud.... that is what is meant by RESIST THE DEVIL AND HE WILL FLEE FROM YOU!!!!!!!!! 

This is HUGE for me.  You don’t understand how huge.  When I was under such horrible spiritual oppression that I wanted to commit suicide on a daily basis, I made a promise to God.  I said if He would help ME get free, I would SHARE what He showed me with his other hurting children, and HELP THEM GET FREE.  This is my THIRD opportunity in less than a month to do just that!!!!  God keeps reminding me when I feel fearful, or inadequate  "TWYLA, You PROMISED.  And I WILL HELP YOU."  Isaiah 41 is an awesome chapter in the Bible that tells all about how GOD will stand at our right hand and HELP US.

WHAT A POWERFUL AND MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!!!!!!  IT’S AMAZING.  I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE WHAT GOD WILL DO TOMORROW!!!!!

P.S. UPDATE:  Our sharing time was awesome!!   She did not even realize it, but God has lately been showing HER some awesome truths that are going to help her wage aggressive WAR in her battle for herself and her precious kids.  It is so cool how GOD shows up behind the scenes and starts to work, before you know even know what you need!!!  AWESOME.

Another P.S. Update.  I just got a text from another friend of mine who is a MOM ---- Her daughter is preparing to make an immediate and disastrous marriage that will surely wreck the lives of her children and HER. If nothing else, it will wreck the relationship between mother and young children, as the children are violently opposed to it.  The devil has been involved in this one from the get go, as the man in question is a liar, fornicator, and an established adulterer.  It is never a good idea to walk into a marriage with something like that. I wanted to put this one on here for sure, because I want to document this.  Sometimes when you forget to keep track of things, you loose track of the answered prayers God provides and the supernatural way HE MOVES.  I am standing in agreement with MOM in war and intercession to prevent this awful marriage from taking place.  God never violates anyone's free will, but He can certainly influence things.  We pray He will move mightily in this matter.  In Jesus' name amen.

All you PRINCESS WARRIORS, stand up and fight with me.... for your homes, your families, your provision, and your lives.  Blessings.

Day 7 Amazing Stuff happening in Spiritual Warfare!

Wow, so many things are happening, I cannot get the blogs written fast enough!   Yesterday was Sunday.  I woke up under such a horrible oppression, I did not know if I could even make it through the day.  Early in the morning, with nobody to pray with or for me, I got ready and drove to church.  I did not want to even go, and if I had not been committed to my volunteer position in the visual/audio booth, I would have crawled under my bedsheet and laid there with it over my head indefinitely.  I felt so discouraged, wondering if I was mistaken about this whole 30 Day thing.  I said “GOD – I don’t see ANYTHING happening in my life!  I feel more ALONE and isolated than ever!  I am all by myself, and getting my butt kicked by the devil, and I sure need some help here today!!” 

In addition to my other discouragements, I was even feeling bad about this blog.  When I started it, I KNEW God told me to do it.  I just KNEW it.  I was going to wait a week or two, until things calmed down a little to start it, but I felt so strongly in my spirit that I was supposed to start it, that there was somebody out there who desperately needed it, I was up working on it in the middle of the night.  Artists are driven to create, they can’t help it—even if their talent doesn't appeal to everyone. I'd asked a couple of friends to take a look and give me some feedback, to let  me know if the content was too personal, or if it would make readers uncomfortable.  I got zero feedback. Nobody I asked to read it bothered to even look at it.  One of my personal soul struggles in my life has been rejection, and the devil knows it.  That’s where he knifes me in the gut every time, to bring on discouragement, depression, and loneliness, rendering me useless.  I was feeling so discouraged, I went online and pulled all the recent links to my blog off my FB posts.  Then I went to church. 

I went upstairs to my workstation, feeling so glum…. so alone, so isolated, invisible, discouraged, spiritually tired, and wondering if I had heard from God at ALL on ANYTHING.  Was I supposed to be warring, or was it all just crazy nonsense I dreamed up out of my own restless, A.D.D., sometimes totally manic mind?? We creative types are often plagued into extreme misery and despair by the supersonic workings of our own high-speed, Ferrari type brains that refuse to slow down and process things realistically.  Our minds are continually churning.  That's why we have trouble sleeping at night.  When we feel bad.... WE FEEL REALLY BAD.  When we feel good, we are totally nuts and we drive everyone around us nuts.  I wondered if God was DOING anything in my life.  I haven’t seen any evidence of anything in my personal struggles.  No job interviews have come up.  I still have the chronic headaches and fatigue.  My kids are still in the deep weeds.  I am still having terrible challenges connecting with people and making new friends.  The man of my dreams had not called me up for a date Friday night.

It’s almost been like I have a personal black cloud traveling right over the top of me, keeping me invisible to the entire world. Actually, I believe I DO!! It’s a spiritual thing stuck onto me that has to be prayed off.  It is preventing my Christian destiny coming to pass.  An invisible person without a job or provision is not going to be much good in the Kingdom of God!  That is part of why I am called to 30 Days of Warfare, to 30 Days of believing God’s promises and hanging on to them for my provision, my breakthrough, my direction, and my blessings.  There is stubborn stuff stuck to me that has to be prayed off and warred off.

I sat through the first morning worship, and the sermon, and my Princess Warrior spirit was completely dormant. She was below ground level, not a breath of life left in her.  I felt like she’d been brutally slain.  I thought “This is your life honey, you better just SUCK IT UP and learn to deal with it, cuz nothing is gonna change!  You are gonna lose it ALL, die all alone and forgotten in a ghetto section 8, you might as well just lay down right now  and die.”  I felt like the prophet Elijah hiding in the desert when Jezebel was after him.  Depleted and discouraged, downgraded and disgusted. I sat there praying, on the verge of tears, saying “GOD I REALLY NEED HELP TODAY!!!”

By the time second service rolled around, the Heavenly reinforcements had arrived.  The lady leading worship started off by reading PSALM 47.

47 O clap your hands, all ye people; shout unto God with the voice of triumph.

2 For the LORD most high is terrible; he is a great King over all the earth.

3 He shall subdue the people under us, and the nations under our feet.

4 He shall choose our inheritance for us, the excellency of Jacob whom he loved. Selah.

5 God is gone up with a shout, the LORD with the sound of a trumpet.

6 Sing praises to God, sing praises: sing praises unto our King, sing praises.

7 For God is the King of all the earth: sing ye praises with understanding.

8 God reigneth over the heathen: God sitteth upon the throne of his holiness.

9 The princes of the people are gathered together, even the people of the God of Abraham: for the shields of the earth belong unto God: he is greatly exalted.

She said it was a Psalm for war.  It is.  She mentioned how PRAISE BROUGHT DOWN THE WALLS OF JERICHO!!!!  Then she said “We can’t rely on our FEELINGS, we just have to take God at His word on what he will do for us.  Feelings will mislead us every time!”

Did you read that?  PRAISE BROUGHT DOWN THE WALLS OF JERICHO!!!!  That was the whole topic of my blog yesterday.  God told me my prayer list was my personal Jericho, and if I would symbolically march around it and praise, THOSE WALLS WOULD COME DOWN!!!!  The devil was using my FEELINGS to mess with me, to get me to give up and QUIT so I would LOSE OUT on the breakthrough God promised me was coming if I would war for 30 days. 

The Princess Warrior WOKE UP from her underground slumber.  By the time the worship team started singing HOSANNA, I was totally into the praise and worship for real.  Depression, oppression, heaviness was GONE, and the Princess Warrior was in charge, with her weapons of war at the ready.  I had to tell the worship leader how incredibly powerful her words were for me.  She was amazed, and said “Well I thought I was just up there rambling on way too much!”

 I said “No, you said just what you were supposed to say!” 

God gave her those words for me, which proves to me that HE IS RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL THIS!!!  How often does God give a minister in church a special word for YOU alone????  It sure doesn't happen every day, but when it does, it is a faith builder.  You KNOW that you know you matter!

I went home and had a really productive time of prayer with my prayer partner.  After which I made an INCREDIBLE chicken salad for our lunch.  Then I got ready to go to the once per month Habitation service at Gateway Church.  It is always incredible. They pray special prayers, and have special music, and they are always giving us testimonies of miraculous healings and moves of God that happen within the Gateway Habitation service.  I always invite people, and about 99% of the time, I go and sit through the service alone.  However, I hardly ever miss it.  God always shows up and I don’t want to miss God!!  I had FOUR friends whom I’d invited and who had earlier promised to come.  They were all single, 3 girls and a guy.  And they would ALL like to be in a godly relationship with “The One”.  (SEE -- really, it is not EVIL or perverse or weird for widows to want to be married, like many people believe!!!  We are just the same as the divorced people when it comes to feeling sick of being alone and wanting someone special to share our lives!!)  Only ONE friend showed up! One friend decided to stay home and sleep.  One friend was busy trying to make a hookup with somebody, and let THAT keep them out of Habitation, and the other had a date (a date with a WRONG guy -- girlfriend I love you with all my heart, but HE is not the one...... and your spirit knows it......).

Now – would you like to know what one of the elders was led to pray over????  GET READY.  He said “Would all the single people in this church who would like to be married stand up – I feel led to pray that God will provide mates for YOU ALL!”  Then he asked for all of the non-single people to lay hands on us and pray while he prayed.  Our mouths were hanging open, but we stood up.  Fully 1/3 of the people in that crowded auditorium stood up! Maybe more.  I looked around in total amazement.  I knew that there were a LOT of single people attending Gateway who were not participants in the singles group….for pretty much the same reason I seldom participate in it.  I won’t get into the why of the severely limited participation of Gateway singles in the singles group here, but it is a serious issue.  Myself and several others are praying about that.  I had no idea there were so many!!!   My friend and I looked at each other and grinned, and said “In Jesus' name, we receive!” 

A lovely married man next to us prayed a wonderful prayer over us.  We smiled so hugely, we looked like mules eating corn through the neighbors’ picket fence. Our absent friends missed out on the special blessing, but we did not!!!!  We were right there in the middle of it, where we were supposed to be, and I thought it was SO COOL that the elders felt led to pray that prayer.  Those prayers they pray are very powerful…..

A special, godly man to share my life and be my soul mate, daily, permanent prayer partner and my spiritual leader is ONE of the breakthroughs I am praying for! The Bible says ONE puts a thousand to flight, TWO puts 10 thousand to flight.  I am ready for my prayer life to ratchet up to the 10th power -- and HEARTILY sick of traveling the Christian pilgrim road alone.  With the right person walking beside me, I might not fall into that "slough of despond" (from John Bunyan's Pilgrim's Progress) so often!!  I do not want to date any more toads.  I will NOT waste my time on toads.  I’m holding out for GOD HIMSELF to pick and choose THE ONE and divinely place him directly into my life.  I want only God’s choice, and only God’s choice for me!!!!  I plan to be BLESSED and deliriously happy when I get married!  You won’t see me in any divorce court, ever again, by the grace of GOD!!!   

They also prayed for people with cancer.  So I stood up for my sister in law, Carol, who is seriously ill with cancer.  I have been praying for her daily.  It was a fabulous service.  I went up front afterward to get prayed for…. Because why MISS an opportunity for someone to pray over you when you are in WAR??  My altar prayer minister was a lovely older lady in the Gateway widows group named Jean.  She prayed a wonderful prayer over me.  I left that place with my Princess Warrior spirit infused with power and might, convinced that THE WALLS OF MY PERSONAL JERICHO ARE COMING DOWN!!!!!  The FALL of THIS JERICHO will be MIGHTY!!!!

I can’t wait to see what happens next.  This is incredible.  If nobody except one person on this whole earth reads my blog about my spiritual journey, and gets blessed and encouraged from it, if my personal art remains hidden on the walls of Heaven with no one but God and one other person benefiting, I will have done what God ASKED me to do, and His blessing for my obedience will come!!  I know God loves and accepts me.... and He will bring the human acceptance my way in His own good time.  Amen…… the Spirit Warrior rides her horse into battle!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KXp5nGBre4&feature=endscreen  This is the praise song that is blessing me in my Jericho battle today.  It is very uplifting to the soul………..  I could listen to it all day long.

Day 5 of Spiritual Warfare

Day 5:  God is telling me that I am supposed to share with you all what is happening throughout this 30 days of war He has called me to.  He is showing me new things almost hourly, certainly daily!!  Back when I was participating in legalistic religion all those years, I used to think that people who said "And God said.... And God showed me....." were nuts.  God sure does have a sense of humor!!!

I have struggled for a long time to try to understand why things were so bad for so long.  God has showed me things about that, periodically, over time.  God was not the AUTHOR of bad things, but He is using them to mold and shape me into something HE can USE.  Most of you who know me know my story, but for those of you who don’t, I can give you the short version for now.  I don’t usually share ALL the details, but I think I am supposed to share them now.  My spirit says someone needs to hear it.

I was brought up a Baptist preacher’s kid, in a very legalistic church.  I don’t discount that religion – if you want ROOTS that sink into the ground so far you can never be pulled out, a Baptist faith is the way to start out.  It’s a very solid foundation, it’s just missing some vital information.  My dad pastored a small country church, and he worked our farm. Those country people there expected him to do everything, including mow the church lawn.  He did not have a whole lot of spare time for us. I grew up feeling very isolated, invisible and left out. 

When I met my first husband, I was an emotional and spiritual mess.  Shortly after meeting him, I was a victim of his drunken date rape. I felt guilty and soiled over the whole thing. When looked at through the lens of that legalistic background, I felt it was my fault.  I felt like God was mad at me, and I had no choice but to marry him.  3 months later I married him, and my journey into HELL began.  He was a terrible alcoholic, and extremely mean, evil, and cruel.  For 9 years I suffered horrific abuse at his hands.  I lived in horrible poverty, torment and violence.  I was beaten up regularly and frequently had my life threatened.  I had “church people” continually telling me that I could not leave, it was my responsibility as a good Christian wife to stay, pray it through, and get him saved.  If he died and went to hell, it was my fault.  If I left him, I would be driving him to adultery and I would be responsible.  If I left and ever remarried, I would spend the rest of my life as an adulteress, and GOD WOULD NEVER BLESS ME.  I was not really interacting with my parents at this time, so it was not their voices I was listening to.  They would have fully supported my leaving him.  However, he was a master isolationist, and he kept me away from my parents.

I left him once, for over a year, and religious people convinced me to return to him.  I knew it was a horrible mistake, but I succumbed to their pressure.  His insanity escalated to the point I nearly lost it altogether.  He went on a drunken binge to end all mean drunken binges.  After days and days of torment and hell, I almost killed him.  I locked myself in my bedroom to escape him.  He kicked in the bedroom door and broke it up to come after me. I had a 38 revolver pointed at his gut when he broke through the door, with my finger on the trigger and the safety off.  I fully intended to end him if he came one step closer. I wasn't going to put up with even one more second of it.  I wasn't going to get beaten again and have him threaten to cut off my head and roll it down the street like a bowling ball even ONE MORE TIME.  I was DONE.  His drunken mind actually grasped that I was dead serious, and he walked away.  That was the only thing that saved his life.  After that, I realized that I absolutely had to leave or one of us would end up dead, religious lectures from well meaning Christians or no!  I had 3 children to raise, and I sure couldn’t do that from prison.  I couldn't do it if I was dead, either.  His raising the children would be a fate worse than death for them.

I divorced him and was a struggling single mom of 3 kids for 9 years.  He paid a grand total of $300.00 in child support in all that time.  I learned later (when she was 16 years old) that he sexually molested my youngest daughter when she was only 5.  All of our journey walking through that could fill the pages of a whole book.

After 9 years, I met and married my second husband.  He was a wonderful Christian man, and I knew God put him into my life.  He was the only way I made it through the teen years of my children, because they ALL went wheels-off crazy with acting out, rebellion, drugs, alcohol, etc.  If you don’t believe in the REALITY of generational curses, just take a good look at children of alcoholics.  That will certainly convince you of the reality.

My second husband was not a perfect man, but we loved one another very much.  When I met him, he was an active member of AA, and a recovered alcoholic.  He was a wonderful example of a redeemed,  bought back life.  He realized his life had spun out of control due to his addiction, and he decided to utilize the power of God to take it back.  He did not continue wallowing it in and destroying the lives of others through his addiction like my first husband had.  We were married for about 7 years when he was diagnosed with esophageal cancer.  We went through chemo and radiation.  The cancer was dormant for awhile, but it returned and matasticized all over his body.  He was very ill for several months.  I left my job to take care of him.  He spent the last 3 months of his life in the hospital.  He suffered terribly before dying while I was holding him in my arms in the ICU.  His funeral was on our 9^th anniversary. If you don't think something like that will leave a gaping wound in your heart...........

I had a really hard time getting  back to work.  I went back to work for a year, then got laid off again.  The rest of the story is in the first blog. 

So, we get back to WHY were things so bad for so long?  For 6 years, things have been beyond awful.  They weren’t peachy keen before then, either.  But, God has been showing me that the TRIALS and the challenges have combined to make me a stronger person.  I was not allowed to be a lukewarm milk toast Christian.  Some Christians can get by with doing that all their lives.  God would not allow it for me.  I got so very miserable…. I got so to the END of myself…. I spent so many months in a suicidal funk…. I came to the lowest point of misery and failure where I felt like I literally could not even LIVE if I did not get breakthrough, and find some POWER and VICTORY in my life.  I told God for about 4 years… “God,if you will get me free, I PROMISE I will share what you teach me with your other defeated, hurting children, and help them get free too!”

I had a promise to keep to God.  He let me go through all that MESS so that I would get desperate enough to seek Him with my whole heart, whatever it took.  I became a sold out Jesus freak, and I did not care who knew it.  My old friends and family started calling me a “Holy Roller”.  (Actually, I have never rolled in my life……unless I fell down a staircase and rolled by accident....which I HAVE....) My relationship with GOD became more important to me than anything else in my life.  I probably would not have reached the point of that commitment without going through the years of Hell.  I might have settled into a comfortable rut, and sat on a church pew for years thinking that’s all I was supposed to do…. that, and throw a few dollars in the offering plate, just like about 90% of Christians in today’s world.   God had a higher place He called me to.  Getting to that higher place takes a lot of work, pain, and suffering on our part.  It’s not for the weak or the faint of heart. 

That’s where FREEDOM MINISTRY came in.  I started seriously pursuing it about 3 or 4 years ago.  If you don’t know what freedom ministry is….research it.  It is a set of concepts that basically helps Christian people overcome tough, besetting problems in their lives which are of a spiritual nature, which keeps them from being victorious and successful.  Or, keep reading my blog, and you will get the idea of what spiritual warfare and freedom ministry are.  I couldn’t possibly explain it all in one blog.  I already have about 20 books on the subject, and that still isn’t enough.

So, what did God do in our warfare TODAY???  My prayer partner and I met early this morning. She showed up at my door about 7:15.  I did not get to bed until around 4:00, and did not go to sleep until about 5:30.  I have been suffering severe insomnia since about February.  It’s really been kicking my butt.  My dogs woke me up and told me she was at the door.  I stumbled downstairs in my sleep shirt, with my hair standing on end and my eyes full of sleep goo.  I immediately downed two cups of strong coffee with two Excedrin, and dumped a tablespoon of Taurine powder into my morning vitamin drink.  I shook off the cobwebs, and we took our Lord’s Supper with our grape juice and matzo crackers.

Then we went to war.  We prayed through our prayer list, and we binded and loosed.  (You will learn about that when you research spiritual warfare and freedom ministry – but it is very powerful!)  Then, she had to leave, and I started in on my praise.

PRAISE is a huge weapon in the arsenal of the Christian warrior.  I had not the vaguest idea of this concept until just a couple of years ago.  Singing hymns or choruses was just something you did when you went to church.  PRAISE IS WHAT BROUGHT DOWN THE WALLS OF JERICHO.  When you look at arial photography of Jericho’s ruins, it looks like a huge, giant footprint stomped into the ground.  When the archaeologists excavated the ruins, they discovered a very strange thing.  It was originally THOUGHT that the walls crumbled and fell.  But according to the archaeology, the walls were DRIVEN INTO THE GROUND!! CRUSHED into the earth!!!!  That’s what the praise of the saints will accomplish.

Joshua 6:1-27 tells the story of the battle of Jericho.

Sometimes true praise is really difficult to dredge up, especially when things are not going well.  It’s basically “fake it till you make it”.  That is why the Bible says “bring the sacrifice of praise….”.  Sometimes it IS a sacrifice just to DO it.  But if you start praising as an act of obedience, and keep doing it, it will soon become real to you and you will be praising for real.

The Bible says in Psalm 100:4 Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name.

I turned on the praise music and started my verbal praise along with the musicians.  I felt tired and a little grumpy and wanted to go back to bed.   Eventually, praise started coming out for real.  I am standing on my living room rug, lifting my hands and singing out enthusiastic praise. Then I am walking around in circles praising.  Some of those songs just made me want to cry.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=il-bJjeiOhY    This particular song totally energized my Princess Warrior, and I felt a very strong sense of the presence of God.  Maybe it is because he says Yahweh in the song…. I have no idea.  But I am finding it very powerful for me.

Then God spoke in a very quiet voice to the inner Twyla.  He told me to go get the prayer list that my partner and I are praying over.  Her prayers are on one side of the sheet and mine are on the other.  We are updating it daily.  He told me to put that prayer list in the middle of my rug.  He told me that the needs for breakthrough on that prayer list were MY Jericho.  And He told me that I was supposed to march in circles around it praising and praying and thanking Him for answers.  And keep doing it.  And He would knock my walls of Jericho down.  IT WAS WAR!!!!!  So I did that for at least 40 minutes. 

Anyone watching me would probably have found it insane.  Anyone except a HOLY ROLLER, that is!!!!  Do not think for even one second that I do not know how WEIRD this sounds!!!  My religion taught me that this kind of stuff was crazy.  I am living proof that it’s not crazy, it is real and powerful.  All I can tell you is…. God was THERE in the middle of it…. And those walls are crumbling DOWN!!!!!  I am feeling them crumble in my spirit, although I have not yet seen anything yet in the natural.  But –  I sure know the presence of GOD when I feel it!!!!!

What will God do tomorrow… and the next day????  I have no idea.  We will have to just wait and see!!!!  Please pray for me as I war through my 30 days!  Thursday night at church, a man came up and told me I had been on his mind about 20 times during the week…….and God was telling him to PRAY FOR ME, that I needed strength for war.  You can’t tell me that God is not right in the middle of this…………..

WELCOME to Musings of a Warrior Princess for Christ

Welcome to my new blog.  I thought a perfect time to kick it off would be when I started on my 30 days of spiritual warfare that God called me to.  

I've been stuck in a 6-year rut. My family and my finances got attacked and my beloved husband died a terrible, painful death from cancer. Whatever could go wrong has gone wrong and stayed wrong.  My beloved sister in law is battling serious cancer, and my Dad has terminal Parkinson’s disease without much longer to live.  I was out of work for a really long time after my husband died.  When I finally returned to work, it was a wretched job where I often worked for 10 or 11 hours per day (while getting paid for only 8).  I was cursed at and reviled on a daily basis, but I stuck it out because I needed the money.  I was one person, responsible for all the bills that once took two to pay.  Even while tithing that hard earned money, I lost that job, and I am still out of work for nearly a year later.  All 3 of my children have been living in the very deep weeds.  My financial situation has been very scary. Reserves are dwindling, 401K’s have been cashed out, and the IRS has their hands out for money I don’t have.  My health has suffered, and even my house seems to be falling apart.

I fell into such a pit of despair, I thought I might never crawl out.  I couldn't figure out why Heaven’s doors seemed closed to any blessings for me or my children.  I requested prayer many times at church, tried to remove all known sin out of my life, and tried to make sure I forgave all the people who did me wrong over the years.  I’ve been attending two churches, and am there nearly every time the doors are open.  I volunteer locally.  I have made it a daily point to “pray without ceasing”, filling multiple 3 inch notebooks with journaling over the past year. I've bought and read dozens of Christian self-help books. For a while, I was attending 3 church services and 4 Bible studies a week -- until I burned out from exhaustion.  I still got no breakthrough.

Last summer, I went to a VISION LIFE (Irving Tx) seminar on spiritual warfare. In February, I got so discouraged and full of despair from trying to emerge from my endless “dark night of the soul”, that I called one of the Vision Life counselors and asked for some one-on-one help.  I started seeing one of their pastors once per month in February.  Our first visit lasted 6 hours.

Since seeing him, I have experienced some tremendous spiritual breakthroughs and amazing inner healing, although my physical circumstances (children, finances, job, etc.  etc.) have not outwardly changed. The first few months I was seeing him, I struggled horribly between visits. Then I got a prayer partner, who was on the same page as me, which has helped tremendously. She was seeing the same pastor for spiritual counseling, too.

We started praying together, and for one another, and things began happening in the spirit world. When she came to my home to and ask me to pray for her spiritual issues, she and I could immediately SEE my prayers working, which greatly encouraged me.  I had begun to wonder if my prayers were near dead. I had other friends call me for prayer as well, and they assured me that prayers I prayed for THEM were WORKING. For many years, I have felt that God called me to be a prayer warrior. I was mystified as to why things were so tightly locked up in my own life. When I convinced my prayer partner to start praying for me like I was praying for her, I saw much of my recurring oppression and depression lifting off me, and I was able to better survive between my counseling appointments.

I had an appointment with my counselor on Monday. His office is in Plano, and I wondered if I would ever make it alive. Hwy 635 and 75 were a nightmare. I was almost run down no less than 8 to 10 times, by trucks and cars weirdly swerving over into my lane crowding up beside me, or abruptly cutting me off. However, ever since Sunday, when my prayer partner and I prayed over a hurting friend of ours who was in a very bad place, I had felt something just like a lion's roar slowly building up in my spirit. I felt strong and victorious, like God truly WAS on my side, and like He was getting ready to help me achieve victory over all the oppression and garbage in my life and in the lives of those I cared about; even in the lives of those He would bring to my door.  I started getting really ANGRY at all the attacks from the enemy going on around me, and determined I would do whatever necessary to fight it. 

When I got over to the pastor’s office, he prayed me through some things that were bringing me down. Then he said he felt divinely impressed by the Holy Spirit to LOOSE my Warrior Spirit. He told me he felt like I was READY. I said "What does that mean exactly?" His response was "Well, it enables you to utilize the power and authority Jesus bequeathed you when he died on the cross to WAR very aggressively in the spirit world..... and you'll definitely feel it, it's like a lion's roar coming up out of your belly --- AAAaahhhhhrrrrr, you cannot mistake it!!!"

I was amazed. I said "The warrior spirit is already on its way here, I distinctly felt that lion roar on the way over, even when half the vehicles on the road were trying to wipe me out and keep me from making it to your office!" 

THAT WAS SO COOL!!! Is that GOD or what????  God was already sending the Lion, he was on his way…… when the pastor prayed for it to come.

When I got home, I called my prayer partner and told her about it. She came over to pray with me. God has unmistakably called her to be a prayer warrior as well. There are certain things in both our lives that we have been praying for personal breakthrough in, that have seemed totally stuck for us.  Things like issues with personal habits, finances, careers, children, and relationships. As a matter of fact, she believes God has promised her a husband, and she believes it is a certain man from her church.  She’s been standing in faith for God to call that man into her life, even though they haven’t even spoken together yet.  When she first told me about that, I thought she was completely nuts.  I don’t think that anymore.  These things moving around in the Spirit World are over and beyond what we could ever hope or think.  We serve an all mighty and all powerful God who DESIRES to lavish us with GOOD GIFTS.  If God can send a person a job for provision, or can heal someone who is sick, He can certainly send a husband to a woman who desires one!

When I told her about the pastor loosing the Warrior Spirit for me, she was very excited, and said "If it's been loosed for you, then you can pray it over me and it will come for me too!" I was a little doubtful, but I prayed it over her.... and she received it too!

After that, within the HOUR, God told both of us that we needed to meet every day and SPEND TIME TOGETHER WARRING IN THE SPIRIT EVERY DAY FOR 30 DAYS to get our breakthroughs. And, He told me that before we prayed and warred each day, we needed to sit down and take the Lord's Supper to prepare ourselves.  AND -- we also needed to utilize the saints' weapon of PRAISE, which BROUGHT DOWN THE WALLS OF JERICHO.  Believe me, I realize if you are not familiar with these concepts, you might find them very strange.  I came out of a denomination that teaches all the gifts of the Spirit ceased once the Bible was written.  So, believe me, I DO realize how strange this may sound to you!  I came from a church who thought people were crazy if they raised their hands during worship.  They also believed that if a hymn was anything other than sedate, God was being disrespected.  However, when I saw a whole new dimension to Christianity besides the one I was taught as a child, with my own eyes, I changed my mind!

So, Monday was DAY ONE of our warfare. If you had been present in the room, you might have raised your eyebrows high, so it’s probably a good thing you weren’t there.  We prayed and praised for at least an hour, entreating God for breakthrough in our STUBBORN areas, and praising Him for the victories that were coming.

When we met on day two, I was feeling very discouraged and deflated before my prayer partner came, like a flattened balloon.  But after we praised and prayed, the Princess Warrior returned with power and might, and I knew I had to share my experience with you all.  I cannot wait to see what will happen by the end of this 30 Days God has called us to war. I believe I will have a job, and I also believe I will have a new romantic relationship in my life.  (Some of you who personally know me realize I’ve been looking for someone very SPECIAL to share my life for a while too, it’s another “frozen” area for me!  Just any average man won't do, he must be completely sold out to loving and serving God -- have you any idea how hard it is to find a person like that???  I don't even care what he does for a living; he can be a Roter Rooter guy, a plumber, or a computer geek, or an electrician, or a CEO of a huge company, I don't really care what, as long as he LOVES GOD with all his HEART!!!!)   I believe I will see progress with my children struggling through the deep weeds. I believe stalled and stagnant relationship issues in my life will break through into vibrant progress. Dare I even expect…..my chronic headaches and fibromyalgia pain issues to go??!!  

I know that buying into this will be a stretch for some of you, but I am ready to embrace the coming change.  I am ready to break out of the classic religious rut and see my life transformed into something vibrant and powerful. If it takes becoming a sold out Jesus freak that people point at and ridicule to pull my life out of the gurgling toilet and start living sewage free and victorious, then SO BE IT.  Some may call me crazy and shake their heads and run when they see me coming. Some may laugh at me and call me a "holy roller". Others will come and ask me what's going on, and then they will ask me to pray for them.  It has only been 4 days, and the prayer list that my partner and I are working on has already doubled in size.  People are coming forward and asking us to pray for them too, while we wage war for OUR breakthroughs!! 

However the answers play out, whatever time frame they come in, God is in control, and I expect to see things move. The power of prayer truly works!!!!!!  There is an unseen dimension to our world, and this is where war is waged, and where  lives change and where eternity is decided!  I’m determined to count in that world, and eager to see what God will do with my two willing hands assisted by a horde of holy angels sent by God fighting on my behalf.  The LION roars……... the Princess Warrior rides her white horse and she is now equipped for war!  I covet your prayers while I battle, and hope to post again soon. Blessings, my friends!