Welcome to my new blog. I thought a perfect time to kick it off would
be when I started on my 30 days of spiritual warfare that God called me to.
I've been stuck in a 6-year rut. My family and my finances
got attacked and my beloved husband died a terrible, painful death from cancer.
Whatever could go wrong has gone wrong and stayed wrong. My beloved sister in law is battling serious
cancer, and my Dad has terminal Parkinson’s disease without much longer to live.
I was out of work for a really long time
after my husband died. When I finally
returned to work, it was a wretched job where I often worked for 10 or 11 hours
per day (while getting paid for only 8).
I was cursed at and reviled on a daily basis, but I stuck it out because
I needed the money. I was one person,
responsible for all the bills that once took two to pay. Even while tithing that hard earned money, I
lost that job, and I am still out of work for nearly a year later. All 3 of my children have been living in the very
deep weeds. My financial situation has
been very scary. Reserves are dwindling, 401K’s have been cashed out, and the
IRS has their hands out for money I don’t have.
My health has suffered, and even my house seems to be falling apart.
I fell into such a pit of despair, I thought I might never crawl
out. I couldn't figure out why Heaven’s
doors seemed closed to any blessings for me or my children. I requested prayer many times at church, tried
to remove all known sin out of my life, and tried to make sure I forgave all
the people who did me wrong over the years. I’ve been attending two churches, and am there
nearly every time the doors are open. I
volunteer locally. I have made it a daily
point to “pray without ceasing”, filling multiple 3 inch notebooks with
journaling over the past year. I've bought and read dozens of Christian self-help
books. For a while, I was attending 3 church services and 4 Bible studies a
week -- until I burned out from exhaustion.
I still got no breakthrough.
Last summer, I went to a VISION LIFE (Irving Tx) seminar on
spiritual warfare. In February, I got so discouraged and full of despair from
trying to emerge from my endless “dark night of the soul”, that I called one of
the Vision Life counselors and asked for some one-on-one help. I started seeing one of their pastors once per
month in February. Our first visit
lasted 6 hours.
Since seeing him, I have experienced some tremendous
spiritual breakthroughs and amazing inner healing, although my physical
circumstances (children, finances, job, etc. etc.) have not outwardly changed. The first
few months I was seeing him, I struggled horribly between visits. Then I got a
prayer partner, who was on the same page as me, which has helped tremendously.
She was seeing the same pastor for spiritual counseling, too.
We started praying together, and for one another, and things
began happening in the spirit world. When she came to my home to and ask me to
pray for her spiritual issues, she and I could immediately SEE my prayers
working, which greatly encouraged me. I had begun to wonder if my prayers were near dead. I had other friends call me for prayer as well,
and they assured me that prayers I prayed for THEM were WORKING. For many
years, I have felt that God called me to be a prayer warrior. I was mystified
as to why things were so tightly locked up in my own life. When I convinced my
prayer partner to start praying for me like I was praying for her, I saw much
of my recurring oppression and depression lifting off me, and I was able to
better survive between my counseling appointments.
I had an appointment with my counselor on Monday. His office is in
Plano, and I wondered if I would ever make it alive. Hwy 635 and 75 were a
nightmare. I was almost run down no less than 8 to 10 times, by trucks and cars
weirdly swerving over into my lane crowding up beside me, or abruptly cutting
me off. However, ever since Sunday, when my prayer partner and I prayed over a
hurting friend of ours who was in a very bad place, I had felt something just
like a lion's roar slowly building up in my spirit. I felt strong and
victorious, like God truly WAS on my side, and like He was getting ready to
help me achieve victory over all the oppression and garbage in my life and in
the lives of those I cared about; even in the lives of those He would bring to
my door. I started getting really ANGRY
at all the attacks from the enemy going on around me, and determined I would do
whatever necessary to fight it.
When I got over to the pastor’s office, he prayed me through
some things that were bringing me down. Then he said he felt divinely impressed
by the Holy Spirit to LOOSE my Warrior Spirit. He told me he felt like I was
READY. I said "What does that mean exactly?" His response was
"Well, it enables you to utilize the power and authority Jesus bequeathed
you when he died on the cross to WAR very aggressively in the spirit world.....
and you'll definitely feel it, it's like a lion's roar coming up out of your
belly --- AAAaahhhhhrrrrr, you cannot mistake it!!!"
I was amazed. I said "The warrior spirit is already on
its way here, I distinctly felt that lion roar on the way over, even when half
the vehicles on the road were trying to wipe me out and keep me from making it to
your office!"
THAT WAS SO COOL!!! Is that GOD or what???? God was already sending the Lion, he was on
his way…… when the pastor prayed for it to come.
When I got home, I called my prayer partner and told her
about it. She came over to pray with me. God has unmistakably called her to be
a prayer warrior as well. There are certain things in both our lives that we
have been praying for personal breakthrough in, that have seemed totally stuck
for us. Things like issues with personal
habits, finances, careers, children, and relationships. As a matter of fact,
she believes God has promised her a husband, and she believes it is a certain man from her church. She’s been
standing in faith for God to call that man into her life, even though they
haven’t even spoken together yet. When
she first told me about that, I thought she was completely nuts. I don’t think that anymore. These things moving around in the Spirit
World are over and beyond what we could ever hope or think. We serve an all mighty and all powerful God
who DESIRES to lavish us with GOOD GIFTS.
If God can send a person a job for provision, or can heal someone who is
sick, He can certainly send a husband to a woman who desires one!
When I told her about the pastor loosing the Warrior Spirit
for me, she was very excited, and said "If it's been loosed for you, then
you can pray it over me and it will come for me too!" I was a little doubtful,
but I prayed it over her.... and she received it too!
After that, within the HOUR, God told both of us that we
needed to meet every day and SPEND TIME TOGETHER WARRING IN THE SPIRIT EVERY
DAY FOR 30 DAYS to get our breakthroughs. And, He told me that before we prayed
and warred each day, we needed to sit down and take the Lord's Supper to
prepare ourselves. AND -- we also needed
to utilize the saints' weapon of PRAISE, which BROUGHT DOWN THE WALLS OF
JERICHO. Believe me, I realize if you
are not familiar with these concepts, you might find them very strange. I came out of a denomination that teaches all
the gifts of the Spirit ceased once the Bible was written. So, believe me, I DO realize how strange this
may sound to you! I came from a church
who thought people were crazy if they raised their hands during worship. They also believed that if a hymn was
anything other than sedate, God was being disrespected. However, when I saw a whole new dimension to
Christianity besides the one I was taught as a child, with my own eyes, I changed my mind!
So, Monday was DAY ONE of our warfare. If you had been
present in the room, you might have raised your eyebrows high, so it’s probably
a good thing you weren’t there. We
prayed and praised for at least an hour, entreating God for breakthrough in our
STUBBORN areas, and praising Him for the victories that were coming.
When we met on day two, I was feeling very discouraged and
deflated before my prayer partner came, like a flattened balloon. But after we praised and prayed, the Princess
Warrior returned with power and might, and I knew I had to share my experience
with you all. I cannot wait to see what
will happen by the end of this 30 Days God has called us to war. I believe I
will have a job, and I also believe I will have a new romantic relationship in
my life. (Some of you who personally know
me realize I’ve been looking for someone very SPECIAL to share my life for a while too, it’s another “frozen”
area for me! Just any average man won't do, he must be completely sold out to loving and serving God -- have you any idea how hard it is to find a person like that??? I don't even care what he does for a living; he can be a Roter Rooter guy, a plumber, or a computer geek, or an electrician, or a CEO of a huge company, I don't really care what, as long as he LOVES GOD with all his HEART!!!!) I believe I will see progress with my children
struggling through the deep weeds. I believe stalled and stagnant relationship issues
in my life will break through into vibrant progress. Dare I even expect…..my
chronic headaches and fibromyalgia pain issues to go??!!
I know that buying into this will be a stretch for some of
you, but I am ready to embrace the coming change.
I am ready to break out of the classic religious rut and see my life transformed into something vibrant and powerful. If it takes becoming a sold out Jesus freak that people point at and ridicule
to pull my life out of the gurgling toilet and start living sewage free and
victorious, then SO BE IT. Some may call me crazy and shake their heads
and run when they see me coming. Some may laugh at me and call me a "holy roller". Others will come and ask me what's going on,
and then they will ask me to pray for them. It has only
been 4 days, and the prayer list that my partner and I are working on has
already doubled in size. People are
coming forward and asking us to pray for them too, while we wage war for OUR
breakthroughs!!
However the answers play out, whatever time frame they come in, God is in control, and I expect to see
things move. The power of prayer truly works!!!!!! There is an unseen dimension to our world,
and this is where war is waged, and where lives change and where eternity is decided! I’m determined to count in that world, and
eager to see what God will do with my two willing hands assisted by a horde of holy angels sent by God fighting on my behalf. The LION
roars……... the Princess Warrior rides her white horse and she is now equipped
for war! I covet your prayers while I
battle, and hope to post again soon. Blessings, my friends!
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